Friday, July 28, 2006
- last day @ SDC -
it was some sort emotional for me to leave this place even though i had only 3 weeks of service there.
the people there are really nice. they are friendly and warm. very much of a big family. this reminds me so much of my time at ANL in 2004-2005 woo...time flies. its gonna be 2007 soon. so back to my last day. it was as usual hectic and rushed as i have to finish a certain portion of a project for them before i go..plus those last minute stuff and backup files and last day administration stuff.. i was so packed!!
and there was even this thank you party the company is celebrating for their successful official opening. with food, lucky draw and some games. so it was even more packed for me. haha so in the end i was late for piano class... well. when i got there, my teacher gave me my exam slip. so tentatively the date and time of my grade 1 practical exam is 16 august 9.45am. wow. morning. i hope i will wake up man.
i guess many of you must be wondering why i learn so long for grade 1. i think the main reason is. i had that change of teacher that delayed me for the registration of exams for the march one.~ or else i thought my previous teacher taught at a much much slower pace...which is more wasting time. this current teacher is more crappy but she is more matter of fact kind. and "practical" kind. she will want u to progress fast and not waste money and time. i hope by next august i can try grade 3 practical. which is a bit risky. as i only have a year to prepare for practising grade 2 and 3 pieces. haha... but now it is confirmed that i am taking grade 3 theory exams in november. maybe if i am fast enough. i will be able to take grade 5 theory in march nxt yr. haha...
hope i will be able to get a perm job @ some govt agency soon. as i would much prefer a job at these instituitions as an officer or executive than an admin assistant, so that i will handle more stuff and be paid more. but its so slow to wait for their reply!! i prefer these jobs as they are more stable in the pay increment and there will be bonus and the benefits are good! rather than i slog in some design company or or small firm where i OT day and night. no benefits. lowly paid. bad bosses. get no bonuses wad so ever. i wonder if i will go back to those life again. i shall forbid myself not to. its not what i want to pursue. so i shall work hard on my interview skills and pay more attention of job adverts!! tada
糖果亂言 Rantings 1:26:00 pm
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- 1st time @ monsoon storm. -
went for a haircut ytd @ JP monsoon storm.
it was 19.90 cut and wash so me and tziming decided to try it.
i seldom cut hair except once or twice a year thingy...
had in mind doing hair treatment too...so we went in the salon.
i told the female i just wanted to trim my layers and shape the hair a bit cos i still wanted to keep my long hair.. then she recommended me to do seaweed hair treatment and scalp treatment with haircut and wash. all 49.90. woot so i did lah..
i didnt understand tziming's sms, thinking that she also accepted the treatment thingy. but she didnt~! i didnt know she had a bad time with the hairdresser she's stuck with for the night. haha...so i still got my treatment and haircut successfully only that i had mistaken the whole package price as 49.90 when it was 79.90. wow~ but nvm since i really had damaged hair and split ends..going to dry hair. so it was worth it. since there is scalp treatment that was really cooling!!
too bad tziming got the unfriendly hairdresser or she would have done hair treatment too! nonetheless, we had a nice dinner @ bento box and nice chat @ mos burger with some drinks.
i am so tempted to wash my hair now as its quite itchy...LOL went for burger king breakfast just now @ IMM with mom...shopped a bit.. now i feel sweaty~~. just cant stand singapore's weather sometimes..its just too warm and sticky. wished i was in a winter country now. woo~~~~
糖果亂言 Rantings 1:16:00 pm
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Tuesday, July 11, 2006
- i took the WRONG bus home -
haiz.
whole day so sad nt enough. when i was at interchange, i still took the wrong bus.
saw a 3 behind i thought it was 333. but i took 143 went back to teban gardens. my former homeplace. @*(#&$^@&(@#&@(#*&
糖果亂言 Rantings 9:04:00 pm
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- i cried. -
i cried in front of so many people.
i lost my self control.
糖果亂言 Rantings 3:13:00 pm
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Sunday, July 09, 2006
- confessions. -
its a long time since i felt like blogging.
recently i took up another temp job, helping a friend while she go overseas for a couple of weeks. initially i thought it will be fine since there wont be much to do in just 2-3 weeks time. but. who knows? during this 2 weeks is their tradelaunch and official opening?! and halfway thru shes going off? then everything falls onto me!
its quite overwhelming for me as i haven adapt to the company's environment and company corporate design style. i dont know what they want. my design skills even became rusty! its totally wrong that i am takin up this job now. initially for money. but now after having known the whole situation. i cant sleep well. i keep eating.. i'm stressed! i'm scared of the boss.. after a few days there i dont feel him easy to deal with..especially for design. and my friend is under a lot of stress too.. i dont know how to go thru these 3 weeks peacefully..i cant possibly not do anything right? i hope i dont go and ruin their official opening... i feel cheated to be in this situation. i'm sorry my friend. but you should have told me earlier what is the whole situation in there before you ask people to cover you up. i dont feel the least bit comfortable everyday since i joined in. i feel like backing out. but i cant! i went to sign the contract!! and i feel guilty now if i back out.. she seems so stressed out.
why did i agree on another difficult situation again!!! i always get myself stuck in these big hole without knowing at first but once i realise. i'm deep deep in it already. can someone help me? and all along i kept telling myself to back out the design world since it has hurt me so much.. and yet i went to accept this offer.. its all my fault. maybe i should forgo the $$ and quit it. i rather be unemployed than having to cry everyday. BUT you know i wont do it. i feel really upset now by this. issit PMS? i hope so. as mine wont last long...but i doubt it. i've got a strong gut feeling all is going to mess up. i think she wont read this...i just need an outlet to release something out.... what do i do now? i dont know...anyone wanna help? i doubt so.
my good friend came to me for help, i spoke to her for quite sometime. it does help when you have a listening ear.. i hope i did you good tt night. you know who you are =) i didnt mention anything that night because it haven got into me yet. as monday gets closer and closer. its overwhelming.... how do i sleep tonight? how do i make sure i wont screw up? maybe i should just watch italy and france fight it out. then go to work without sleeping.
all for $$'s sake. worth it? i dont think so. this year is so not my year except the taiwan trip part. 2 depressing temp jobs and 1 farewell to a job. really enough... i think i should get some rewards next year as for make up. so god? do you hear me? any god??! buddha, jesus, whoever? i need a refreshing 2008! i hate farewells too. i need a job that i want now too. ai~~~ whoever. or santa claus. maybe you can grant my wishes....i'll be waiting.......
糖果亂言 Rantings 11:18:00 pm
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