Sunday, August 31, 2025

dark moment

I often think about the day that I will lose my mum even though it hasn't happened yet.

I know we are supposed to 活在當下 but well .. if it's easy to control with a switch on how we feel or how our mind wonders, then everyone will be depression free...

I don't know why my mind is wired to reject 離別 that much. So much so that I get sentimental too easily and unnecessarily...

Today my mum went on cruise and it felt like the world is without her anymore. My heart feels like an empty void... 

Hope her trip goes well.



Wednesday, August 27, 2025

Zumba zumba

I've been keeping up with the Zumba sessions for the third week.

Tue coach is really good.
Wed coach makes me feel stupid so I shall skip her class as I can't keep up at all ..
Thu coach tried once and it's not ideal .. can't even get music up... Gonna try another Thu coach tomorrow!

Hope for the best! 
Positivity really makes me happier.

Wednesday, August 13, 2025

started to Zumba again

Yesterday I started to Zumba again and it was fun! Because the coach Ada had kpop demon hunter songs in the run up. Will turn up for her class again every Tuesday!

Monday, July 21, 2025

this is harder than I thought

We went to national museum for Lego SG60 exhibition.

I had maze soba that lunch and then Swenson's waffle ice cream tea and home cooked food at Mai Ta's for dinner 

On Sunday, I had Starbucks brunch and the prata lunch and muji dinner ... 


Is this acceptable?

Friday, July 18, 2025

這算失敗嗎?

真的很無奈 出來散散心 點了一份冷面 希望心情變好

Wednesday, July 16, 2025

it's not easy

現在好想好想吃東西 好痛苦 要忍

建立新的routine 真的會崩潰 
這從來都是我的弱項

可以堅持多久呢?

Tuesday, July 15, 2025

Dieting efforts

Not absolutely fantastic but my efforts since 25 Mar. 

Needs more consistency.

More meal preps. Yosh.

Dieting Journey Day ?

Restarting this blog to keep track of my weight loss journey

I have been battling weight issues since puberty.

No more procrastinating 
No more dragging
No more excuses 

I need to diet.

Aim to maintain or reduce my Hba1c reading for prediabetic by Oct review.

I have been starting to watch what I eat for a week or 2. But I only start to record now. 

It is ok. Better than not starting.

On 12 Jul, we went to eat Tutu Kueh at PLQ and Maccha House. Soba Salad for me and some fried chicken from Nat's Omurice. They are closing in one months time..so sad!

On 13 Jul, I had healthy breakfast with americano at coffee bean while waiting for Nat to finish her gym class and then ate bee hoon ytf soup with Nat for lunch and felt really... Sad and depressed and dissatisfied because of the lack of carbs for the week. I succumbed to Doritos spicy nachos.... Then we had macaroni and then McDonald's for dinner .... With Mum.


On 14 Jul, went poly review with mum.. had Wanton mee with mum at 300+ market. Didn't have any food for lunch but ate Mum's cooking for dinner.


On 15 Jul, I resumed my counselling with Hui Moon and then went to office. Had ham cheese cucumber sandwich for breakfast and then crowded bowl for lunch. Dinner was steak with fries and salad using CDC 😅

Hope that I can sustain this until SEP 2026 to see what results I will get for my 42nd birthday.