- Last week's nightmare. but its over. -
last week has been a nightmare ba.. took 2 days off frm Asknlearn to work on a freelance for ling's boss ivan. at first all was fine, actually i think its fine ba..i find it hard to work in group, hard to understand wat other people is thinking and get their picture, and let them get mine. for ivan i guess he wants exactly the way the sample frm that book, so i did for him.. it takes time loh.. it was a great relieve when its finally wednesday afternoon and i can get away frm this for an afternoon @ the singing competition. i went to Kster with lixuan in the afternoon with our voucher for practising plus warm up our voices. i didnt realise i guess deep down inside lixuan she is afraid or something. but she dont show,so as per normal when it was our turn to sing, we went up and it turns out i sing louder than lixuan. i guess shes afraid to show that she could sing. well i think her voice is better than me, but that night i guess she has been thru a lot, LIxuan dont worry, u will soon get over this one. we are all here to support u. but when we were to wait for the results..
i called tziming, not to realise they are actually only across the street opposite us.. so they came over..we chatted. but tziming started to voice out her points and about ivan.. all the things..(she cried).. i didnt know what to do also.. sometimes issit she think too much? ivan is bad lar..i know...he is very VERY irritating also.. keep calling us.. to see the samples. but didnt tell us he needs to show the client.. i tot only he wants to seee.. in the end still blame us nv send to him.. maybe we are still amateur so didnt know alot of common knowledge in freelance.. send to him means need to show client ba.. dunno lar.. anyway all went back to ling;s office there.. to think ivan still thinks theres nothing happening or what.. still continue ask us to show him. then we some sort of force him to sign a contract with us.. as we are insecure. but he drew up a contract that isnt worth a signature.. he has the rights to reject our work if its not up to standard.. so what is the standard??? its the book;s standard.. so i started to ask him about what i have done and ask if its up to standard. he said one of it is ok.. so i roughly guess i know what he wants and he will help us color. but i cant so it all alone!! cuz the deadline is on the next day! and its ard 1am while we were all at the office arguing over these matters. contract..trust...money...work... all these factors contributing to the disaster.. but tziming she was on fever and she is so worried about her work at the other place. so she decided she dont want to work on it anymore.. so hw can i work alone and face ivan alone???? ling is there with me but.. she cant help me either~ she has to continue work in everyday design for some time.. i dont wanna bother her also.. there was one point i was thinking of workin on it alone.. and let htm go..but... i was very tired also..dont feel like facing ivan alone..so all of us stared into space..even though the deadline is on the next day.. thurs..afternoon but.. i guess when ivan's angry.. he blurted out if we cant produce on time.. we have to continue work on friday.......... so what about our work at other companies.. i think he thought we no need to sleep.. this guy ar.. u treat him good .. he treats u like a dog or something.. no need sleep no need eat..work 24 hrs to produce work.. i guess he is like that..no need to say liao..when tziming knows this thing might drag till friday.. its logical she cant.. she has to work there.. got deadline. mine still can.. but not responsible loh..so i still think if i were to work alone .. i might not even finish on friday..cuz of ivan's standard and demands are so high..duno if he can do it himself... realli.. buay tahan.. so after all the fighting silence staring arguing... ivan said : ok u all dont do .. and he walked out and call someone else.. so i decided to call my brother and ask him go to sleep.. cuz he is waiting to send me the files i brought wrong format.. but when i heard my mother;s voice.. i couldnt take it.. i cried .....................
haiz.. cried for a long time cant stop.. singing competition also didnt went in/freelance also gone..no money...sad.. then we sat outside near the office at citibank there and chatted loh..anyway no matter what also take cab liao.. so chat loh..for me is crying+chatting la.. so when it was time to go home.. i took a cab alone and then ling+htm took another cab.. i'm always the odd one out to stay in jurong.. felt sad to take alone, but i chatted with the taxi driver all the way back.. about taxi drivers being murdered.all those scary things and also why so many new companies of taxis.. then when i reached home.. i on my comp immediately.. cuz i want to chat with my hongkong friend to relieve my anger and disappointment.. but she is not online.. only to see ivan's MSN nick :"SCREWED!!!!!*$&*(#^*#&(*$&" .. was very sianz.. when i see this.. i tot he screwed us.. rich pple are liddat.. haiz..=_=
next day.. i woke up and dont even feel like opening my eyes.. too much has happened on wednesday. i decided to call my colleague and tell her i am delaying on more day.. so i stayed home on thursday.. but i went out to watch the terminal with ling in the evening.. and i was late for 45 minutes.. i guess in her heart she has already took a knife and killed me cuz she missed so much of the show..bad me.. i was so guilty that day.. haiz.. traffic jams and stuff..but i managed to seek help in downloading the movie..frm my hk friend.. i am so glad that i have known so many good friends frm fanclubs even though i haven seen them in real person~ there was once a member frm taiwan came to sg to tour and she called me on my phone~ the feeling is strange + woohoo! haha chatted a while then hang up le.. keke.. ling.. i was so sorry about thurs evening..>_< i wont do it again...
[ sorry people i wrote all these here because i want to write down my feelings..i'm not trying to bring back bad memories or what.. but i just need to express my feelings on my blog. ]
on friday i went back to asknlearn and one of the colleagues is leaving on that day.. she treated us to famous prata at pasir panjang for lunch and we all went.. the prata is very nice so many flavours.. like cheese, seafood, murturbak, tomato, banana, egg onion, a lot...... like indian pizza spree haha then we saw channel U's ah Ben filming his show for friday, shi2 zai4 hao3 chi1 then they filmed our table full of prata ahaha cuz we have a big group.. had a fun lunch that day~ but ate too much keke.. gals sometime we should visit any famous prata shop!! nice leh!
saturday i went to watch new police story with my mother in the afternoon keke, the show is surprising nice, didnt expect it to turn out that well with the effects and stunts stories emotions.. i just felt kind of touched that we ASIANS can produce such good quality movie~ we can fight with the hollywood le..! nice go JACKIE CHAN!
