closing this part of my life

peeps.

i'm gonna stop blogging at blogger.. too many blogs makes me blur.
i will only blog at my the other blog in chinese and english depending my my mood.

but this blog will still be here just for memories.. stupid blogger dun have export service..so stupid.= =''''

so...good bye blogspot. i'm leaving....... tata

7 things.

candy saw this on ling's blog and decided that i am too bored. so i'll give it a try.

7 things that scare me
1. any insect
2. the dark....
3. ghost
4. great heights(like bungee jump or wadever)
5. being penniless
6. death...(especially that i dont know what happens the moment i close my eyes)
7. death of my family members or friends..cant imagine that happens...

7 random songs at the moment
1. Avril Lavigne - My Happy Ending
2. 蔡建雅 - Beautiful Love
3. S.H.E - 觸電
4. 范逸臣 - Love Story
5. 張棟梁 - 北極星的眼淚
6. 王心淩 - 彩虹的微笑
7. 張惠妹 - 我要快樂

7 things that i like the most
1. singing
2. shopping
3. getting out of singapore makes me happy
4. online games / reading novels / watching ou xiang ju
5. chocolates or durians
6. my melody
7. taiwan

7 important things in my bedroom
1. my pc
2. aircon
3. piano
4. bed
5. bedside lamp(i scared dark dark)
6. wardrobe
7. whole collection of stuff everywhere

7 random facts about me
1. i almost drowned when i was in pri 6 at a swimming pool. so until now i dont really like the prospect of going to learn swimming.
2. i like things organised and neat.
3. i cannot stand wet toliet floors.. especially when i go overseas or chalet..
4. i only keep thinking of travelling to taiwan but not elsewhere..weird.....
5. i like shopping alone. period.
6. i cannot go out without using hair spray...
7. surprisingly i was once best student of the month and best student for the week for Additional Maths.. and one of the top 2 students in biology class to get workshop in ngee ann poly...


7 things i said the most
1. hahahahaha
2. ha
3. 瞎
4. chey
5. aiyo
6. 不要啦
7. okok

7 things I plan to do before I die
1. give my family a better life
2. lose weight
3. get married?
4. have my own shop selling fashionable accessories
5. become someone famous (haha!)
6. earn at least a million...USD!
7. travel to many places. even working overseas!

interview over.
happy

period.

my mood went up when i left the venue. haha.. then i decided to shop at a shop near my training course centre i went in the past. so i got a couple of handphone accessories again... unfortunately. haha since they are so cute..heehee... after tt i decided to go orchard and window shop. wow its sometime since i go to town area. went heeren HMV to get wasted but who knows? i saw the summer sale albums! its like there are some good buys at only 95 cents! wow... so i got 4 cds at only 3.80..can u believe it? penny/elva/lin yi lian's ktv vcd one each. and makiyo's album. woo..happy man.. so cheap!!!

national day is tmr. but i have no plans. haha
maybe just rot at home again. i'm so wasted mannnnnnnnn

there is an interview tmr.
i dont know why whenever there is an interview coming up, i will be always feeling kinda strange... like walking ard looking v sad. dunno wad to do.. this time its the same as usual.. but the thing that is scary is..there is this 30min written assessment as well. what can i do?? there is nothing to study. i dont know what they want.. and it is so weird to need to write something...for a job? that the pay isn't that high? ai~~ just pray that things dont go astray then i will feel ok liaoz. will practice a few questions tonight. then tmr just go to interview.

after this it will be back to home again. grade 1 exams is coming soon. 16th august. its really contradicting that i dont feel scared at all for that exam. there will be a practice in the examination room this friday afternoon. we gotta book the room. i think shouldnt have much problems with this, jus that i have to pay monthly fee and grade 3 exam fee goes up to 167..woot. ai~~ $$ again.

hope everything goes well lah. i am feeling kinda moody these days. PMS i guess. national day is nothing man..aiyo....so boring one..........i want some excitement!

last day @ SDC

it was some sort emotional for me to leave this place even though i had only 3 weeks of service there.

the people there are really nice. they are friendly and warm. very much of a big family. this reminds me so much of my time at ANL in 2004-2005 woo...time flies. its gonna be 2007 soon. so back to my last day. it was as usual hectic and rushed as i have to finish a certain portion of a project for them before i go..plus those last minute stuff and backup files and last day administration stuff.. i was so packed!!

and there was even this thank you party the company is celebrating for their successful official opening. with food, lucky draw and some games. so it was even more packed for me. haha so in the end i was late for piano class... well. when i got there, my teacher gave me my exam slip. so tentatively the date and time of my grade 1 practical exam is 16 august 9.45am. wow. morning. i hope i will wake up man.

i guess many of you must be wondering why i learn so long for grade 1. i think the main reason is. i had that change of teacher that delayed me for the registration of exams for the march one.~ or else i thought my previous teacher taught at a much much slower pace...which is more wasting time. this current teacher is more crappy but she is more matter of fact kind. and "practical" kind. she will want u to progress fast and not waste money and time. i hope by next august i can try grade 3 practical. which is a bit risky. as i only have a year to prepare for practising grade 2 and 3 pieces. haha... but now it is confirmed that i am taking grade 3 theory exams in november. maybe if i am fast enough. i will be able to take grade 5 theory in march nxt yr. haha...

hope i will be able to get a perm job @ some govt agency soon. as i would much prefer a job at these instituitions as an officer or executive than an admin assistant, so that i will handle more stuff and be paid more. but its so slow to wait for their reply!! i prefer these jobs as they are more stable in the pay increment and there will be bonus and the benefits are good! rather than i slog in some design company or or small firm where i OT day and night. no benefits. lowly paid. bad bosses. get no bonuses wad so ever. i wonder if i will go back to those life again. i shall forbid myself not to. its not what i want to pursue. so i shall work hard on my interview skills and pay more attention of job adverts!! tada

1st time @ monsoon storm.

went for a haircut ytd @ JP monsoon storm.
it was 19.90 cut and wash so me and tziming decided to try it.
i seldom cut hair except once or twice a year thingy...
had in mind doing hair treatment too...so we went in the salon.

i told the female i just wanted to trim my layers and shape the hair a bit cos i still wanted to keep my long hair.. then she recommended me to do seaweed hair treatment and scalp treatment with haircut and wash. all 49.90. woot so i did lah..

i didnt understand tziming's sms, thinking that she also accepted the treatment thingy. but she didnt~! i didnt know she had a bad time with the hairdresser she's stuck with for the night. haha...so i still got my treatment and haircut successfully only that i had mistaken the whole package price as 49.90 when it was 79.90. wow~ but nvm since i really had damaged hair and split ends..going to dry hair. so it was worth it. since there is scalp treatment that was really cooling!!

too bad tziming got the unfriendly hairdresser or she would have done hair treatment too! nonetheless, we had a nice dinner @ bento box and nice chat @ mos burger with some drinks.

i am so tempted to wash my hair now as its quite itchy...LOL went for burger king breakfast just now @ IMM with mom...shopped a bit.. now i feel sweaty~~. just cant stand singapore's weather sometimes..its just too warm and sticky. wished i was in a winter country now. woo~~~~

i took the WRONG bus home

haiz.
whole day so sad nt enough. when i was at interchange, i still took the wrong bus.
saw a 3 behind i thought it was 333. but i took 143 went back to teban gardens. my former homeplace. @*(#&$^@&(@#&@(#*&

i cried.

i cried in front of so many people.
i lost my self control.

confessions.

its a long time since i felt like blogging.

recently i took up another temp job, helping a friend while she go overseas for a couple of weeks. initially i thought it will be fine since there wont be much to do in just 2-3 weeks time. but. who knows? during this 2 weeks is their tradelaunch and official opening?! and halfway thru shes going off? then everything falls onto me!

its quite overwhelming for me as i haven adapt to the company's environment and company corporate design style. i dont know what they want. my design skills even became rusty! its totally wrong that i am takin up this job now. initially for money. but now after having known the whole situation. i cant sleep well. i keep eating.. i'm stressed! i'm scared of the boss.. after a few days there i dont feel him easy to deal with..especially for design. and my friend is under a lot of stress too.. i dont know how to go thru these 3 weeks peacefully..i cant possibly not do anything right? i hope i dont go and ruin their official opening... i feel cheated to be in this situation. i'm sorry my friend. but you should have told me earlier what is the whole situation in there before you ask people to cover you up. i dont feel the least bit comfortable everyday since i joined in. i feel like backing out. but i cant! i went to sign the contract!! and i feel guilty now if i back out.. she seems so stressed out.

why did i agree on another difficult situation again!!! i always get myself stuck in these big hole without knowing at first but once i realise. i'm deep deep in it already. can someone help me? and all along i kept telling myself to back out the design world since it has hurt me so much.. and yet i went to accept this offer.. its all my fault. maybe i should forgo the $$ and quit it. i rather be unemployed than having to cry everyday. BUT you know i wont do it. i feel really upset now by this. issit PMS? i hope so. as mine wont last long...but i doubt it. i've got a strong gut feeling all is going to mess up. i think she wont read this...i just need an outlet to release something out.... what do i do now? i dont know...anyone wanna help? i doubt so.

my good friend came to me for help, i spoke to her for quite sometime. it does help when you have a listening ear.. i hope i did you good tt night. you know who you are =) i didnt mention anything that night because it haven got into me yet. as monday gets closer and closer. its overwhelming.... how do i sleep tonight? how do i make sure i wont screw up? maybe i should just watch italy and france fight it out. then go to work without sleeping.

all for $$'s sake. worth it? i dont think so. this year is so not my year except the taiwan trip part. 2 depressing temp jobs and 1 farewell to a job. really enough... i think i should get some rewards next year as for make up. so god? do you hear me? any god??! buddha, jesus, whoever? i need a refreshing 2008! i hate farewells too. i need a job that i want now too. ai~~~ whoever. or santa claus. maybe you can grant my wishes....i'll be waiting.......

yeah right

yes yr right.
i'm darn lazy to translate my travel entries from chinese to english.... so sorry.....

i'm in the middle of dilema. work or sch?

well i dunno how am i going to cope end of the month... its just the same old shit again. just hope i get into University. and fancy at this time people still ask me to get a insurance policy.well....its shitty coz i cant even protect my own butt now... so dont ask me to protect my life = = haha... well i think i sound funny liaoz

i did have a lot of fun during my trip last last wk. its a brand new experience for me and i really think i went for my own good.. i needed it. its a good break even though going out every single day is so tiring but i enjoyed it. now when i come back...every kind of situation is piling up, contract ending...finding new job....applying for Uni...a lot of things...worry about loans...financial assistance... abt my parents.. ai~~~ its so = =

i wished i didnt have to come back.

destination.

I have always been craving to visit taiwan since i was young.

now i will be flying there in less than 2 days~! sometimes i couldnt believe it but its true~ thrilling...wonderous place i will explore. will be attending a couple of mei's events during this trip. its just so coincidencial. we didnt know she would release her album so close to our date of visiting..well...i guess buddha blessed me so i did have this chance to experience taiwan the way i want it. people say taipei is boring but who cares! they just wanna go to tai nan and see the mountains and hot springs and more different village living. but i just wanna go to the places i keep hearing keep being reminded on tv. like xi men ding, jiu fen, shi lin ye shi, yong kang jie, liu fu cun, tao yuan, tian mu, bi tan, taipei 101, zhong xiao dong lu, just never ending. haha...but i will also see scenery too~ like this time of the year is the blooming season for the flowers on yang ming shan. and i would go and see the dead volcano top on yang ming shan. and dan shui the whole sea view.. sounds like a tiring trip but worth it. =)

let me know ba

http://kevan.org/johari?name=candymei

(should be posted on.....10 feb)
hi readers(if there is any)

i am back for some updates.
been using the chinese blog more
this place...are for those who cant read chinese hahaha...

ok lah...from previous post till now. life has been quite heart warming~
from chinese new yr...till now busy with working...preparing for my trip..
its great actually~ =) i can smile when i sleep tt means i feel satisfied with life.

chinese new yr was terrific. didnt do things very exciting but i suggested to my uncles that we go visiting since some of them moved to new places.

1st day was as usual every yr go to my grandma house for lunch then in the past we will go to tai gong house then also a godma's bungalow of my uncle at katong. but since last yr we stopping visiting as..both of them passed away already in 2004...together with my mother's father. my ah gong. it was sad but i wasnt close to tai gong nor that godma...one year see them once only..so its like i've seen them 20 times to be exact. so the saddest is my ah gong's departure. cuz i see him more la..
so this year we only go grandma house for lunch then chat a while then go to my ah gong place(which now is my mother's brother).. we will sing ktv..chat..gamble...eat...talk nonsense there~! hahaa with my biao meis and uncles and aunties. with the birds parrots that my uncle rear at home. heehee... quite good to be there every yr. second day same thing we will go there. since my father is always working during new yr. we always go to my mother side~ hee.. we went to my auntie house at punggol too~! the flat is nice la.. can play with my nieces there..took pictures of them. will post up soon. and i realise every house i go there is a piano hahaha! cuz got kids ma..all learning.~ haha fun fun~ then 3rd day just went to watch huo yuan jia with my mom~ hee...nice show!

recently been busy at work... cos JAE is starting today! 10 of feb! bz with the websites...helping colleagues do some work... updating webpages... and i will be in charge of the singpass counter at JAE center...woot! must be v careful of mistakes... will be on duties tmr and mon till wed. its quite tiring as we habe to come earlier..cuz it starts at 8.30 and i dont wake up so easily = ='''

been busy catchin up with my piano pieces and theory too! and watching my drama...and also last minute stuff for my trip. i am tired but ok la. can relax once my trip date arrives haha... going to a couple of amei's new album promo events..happy! many places waiting for me to explore! haha..and going to meet some friends there too! lol me gonna read up my travelling guide b4 i go! woot! haha..that book i bought is fantastic!

some matters to settle b4 i go too...stupid contact lens dunno arrive already or not... will call them up! so long readers!